freaking loopy

i'd love to say i could be the redefinition of the phrase "cheshire cat syndrome." after all the current description sucks. but, lets face it (and by we i mean me), im just not crazy enough. i can grin broadly and make logic of illogical things all i want, but i really just lack the nonsense to change such an establishment. which is really too bad, because getting to say i had cheshire cat syndrome would be seriously kickass.
but to expand on the "im not crazy enough" bit. sometimes i start thinking "man, someday i'll paint like salvador dali and confuse everybody with my cryptic non-meanings," or "ill be just like doug tennapel and make something random in a good, intelligent way." but i honestly lack the same type of creativity.
after idolizing tim burton for so long i began to think about how my designs make too much sense. and now that i've started attempting to separate from tim, i can finally say that i dont need to imitate other people to consider myself talented. everybody has their own style of whatever, and its taken me a long time to realize that every time i see something i like, i dont have to recreate it as if it was my own. todays world is in need of originality in entertainment, one cant watch tv without seeing a reference or parody to something else. so to set myself apart i need to practice on myself even more then before.
well, im honestly talking crazy now. even i can see that. you might want to disgregard all that.


oh yeah, the cheshire cat is my favorite character.